so, i guess that people have been worrying about me, but i've been to busy and distracted to notice. i'm sorry, to those that have been involved and those who DO love me. I'll try to explain some.
Things had gotten bad for me. I've been so stressed with everything, and even though some of you have given me advice, it's super hard for me to accept help.
What happened has hurt me like nothing else. ever.
I'm the type of person who wants and needs to fix things, but it really hasn't worked.
I just need to accept that maybe, after all of this, it really isn't all my fault like i thought it was.
And i tried, again, to apologize and fix it, wh